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TWO WORDS

26 July 2006

Five paintings have already been made and all been posted on the forums. So my series of heads is well underway. I don't know if I can maintain the momentum I have going now, but the summer is still going on for some time and I have plenty of variations on techniques I can use to keep things fresh.

It's another typical summer day here, pretty low-key, hot and not much happening. The usual stuff is happening in my life: I powerball my way to stronger hands, I'm reading books, the doctor doubled the time that I need to smear the ointment to get rid of the ringworm and I've watched Bill Bailey's Part Troll for the umpteenth time. It's not about participating, it's the sense of futile despair. Gorgeous. Remind yourself to either download or buy it, whatever fits your moral fibre.

The August year is coming to a close and it's a good thing. Maybe it's the heat or indeed the sense of futile despair, but I'm feeling particularly empty when I think of August these days and for the past few weeks I've been asking myself where I'm going with this. Yes, the plan is to have a ten-year epos, but it still needs to be filled with interesting material, not just rather complacent semi-quips while August walks his serial corridors. I already took steps in procuring a new and interesting twist or dynamic for the third year (hurray for my intuitive instinct!), but the second year will be a grind till its end in September. I'm not saying it'll be a boring ride, but it's automatic pilot-ville around here and I don't see that changing until the third era arrives.

But then it could also just be the heat. Bear in mind that I am a person that not regularly complains about the weather. Usually under the premise that you can have fun even when it's raining. But -oh I don't even know where I wanted to go with this. That's futile despair for you.

Roderick.